at least I know I’m progressing, it’s just going to be bad for all of you for a while.
I haven’t acted like I did this weekend since…the Fireside. Just constant, non-discriminate belligerence. It kind of felt good, like screaming in to a pil
low (which never worked for me) instead I was screaming at my friends and whoever else crossed my path. I’m really not sorry either – shocked maybe – but I had been holding things inside for the longest time while I tried to find a happy balance of old and new Sean. I won’t feel bad for having a slip up, especially when it was warranted (sort of). Anyway, it’s passed I feel…hopefully I can move along without any more incidents. We’ll see.
In other news, I’m kind of looking forward to getting back to school. I just want it to be done with so badly that I’m excited to be getting back in the game and wrapping this shit up. I’m grateful for the little break I had over March/April, I got a lot of time to relax and with the death of Nani I probably would have dropped my spring classes anyway…so it all kind of worked itself out. I miss her so much, I still kind of can’t believe it? I have all of her pictures on the floor of my bedroom, and the blankets I gave her for christmas that I took when I cleaned out her room…
I suppose it will be a while.
I’m so lucky to have support from everyone. All of my friends have been there in one way or another over the past 2 weeks. Love you folks.
Ugh, my iced coffee is diluted.
<3
