christ.
Pride was a blast – Saturday especially. I forgot my camera on both occasions but you can find pictures…
Sunday got a little sloppy and I drank more than I should have knowing I had work in the morning. Even though I skipped avalon that night boy howdy it wouldn’t have mattered. On Monday I felt pretty crappy as to be expected, but by 5 pm things we’re going terribly awry. By the time 7 pm hit and halfway through my class I had a full on fever, body aches, sore throat and a headache for days. Somehow I caught the nastiest 24hr bug in history. I practically stumbled home in a haze of confusion and weakness (I saw Neil Patrick Harris at the copley T station, btw) and went straight to bed. It was fucking awful, I couldn’t get up let alone walk to the kitchen for water…
no fun. but it’s over now.
My lovely Thomas turned 21 yesterday, and it still feels kind of weird. We’ve been drinking together for half a decade so while this age brings huge significance it’s still weird for me and I don’t quite believe it (though I’m happy.) We celebrated at Top of the Hub last night and a few bars after that but kept it low key as the main event is Friday night at my house. It will be a shitshow to remember as it is not only Thomas’s bday but it’s Tevvy’s going away party as well. I’m trying to find the silver lining in her leaving by knowing they’ll be less cat litter/smell/dander everywhere but it’s a pretty sad occasion – she’s been such an amazing person to have in my life for these years I’m sad to see her go. She needs to do what makes her happy and being home with her friends and continuing her life there will do that, so good for her!
With me, well, I sort of lost my mind for the past 72 hrs with being sick and so I’ve been in a bad place. At one point I just wanted to be away from all of this mess, including work and school….I really was at low Seanostasis. Now that I’m out of the hole I’m ok…dreading the make-up work I have to do but my mood has improved.
I think I’m going to make an effort at reforming on some things, I’m far to spread out emotionally to cover myself anymore. Every little thing with people now either pisses me off or gets me upset. I have to pull back some psychological resources and simmer for a while.
and that’s where I’m at right now. I know I’m skirting a few issues but that’ll be the next entry as it’s been far to long since i’ve called you all out and talked up some shit.
