Filed under: drunk post
uhhh, I want to write an update but I’ve been: a) drunk all week b) busy as hell or c) never home
d) all of the above is the correct answer.
I miss the boys.
I’ve been spending my home time with Jonah who has been fabulous, I do love that boy.
TIM! moves in soon and it’s going to be great, ding dong the slob is dead and who better to replace him than a home improving, funny, culinary skilled boy?
fuckin no one!
I like spaces between lines, it makes things more profound.
african bush
see?
err….I need bed.
Filed under: Uncategorized
oh shit I start next week and have no time to sit down for training / when the hell is my damn computer coming? / I hope Dennis doesn’t question me about the paper / I wonder what’s on the exam and if I can memorize all case law for the fucking 14th amendment / I miss Thomas / when is alex leaving? / Jonah probably won’t like how loud I have my music all the time /I wonder if we’ll speak before he goes / thank god vacation is coming up again / I should drink less / a trip to upstate NY might be good for me / maybe I’ll try jogging once Tim moves in / moving offices is going to be a bitch and uncomfortable / oh shit nancy’s birthday is this week / what am I going to do with that laptop? / I need to be more proactive about keeping up my calendar / we shouldn’t use the heat this year with the rent going up / I hope I can get that stain out…
Can’t seem to stop and think about one thing this week, everything is speeding up with the new job and classes changing and my FSB being spread out over the country.
Ah well, hopefully fall will bring some clarity.
Filed under: lyrics
When you try your best but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse.
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
But if you never try you’ll never know
“Just what your worth”
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream, down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I..
Tears stream, down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I..
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.
…one down
one to go…
Filed under: blah
I’ve been watching a lot of TV lately, and I hate TV – generally.
Probably trying to take my mind off of things…ho hum.
I was pretty disappointed in the premiere of Weeds last night. I guess I expected more resolution but it was sort of diluted and dragged on for a while. Not to mention how rediculous the show has become…but whatever I was probably just in a crappy mood since Matty made me turn LOST off.
God I sound like a fat mid-western bachelor. awkldhal;khwfl;kh.
There’s frequent pockets of the crisp fall new england air in the mornings now, I can tell it won’t be long before my nights of coming home from class in shorts and sandals are over. I’m dreading the winter obviously, but sort of looking forward to fall…I think this year it will have the calming affect it used to – It will be nice to have peace of mind with a lot of things that have gone on this year.
I finish up my ConLaw class next week and if all goes well on the final I should be looking at an A (hopefully). I never remember to periodically congratulate myself for maintaining a great GPA through all of this, however easy it sometimes is. Yay me!
Yayyyyyyyyyy…. :/
Filed under: buy me this
Dell Inspiron 530, Intel Core2 Duo Processor at 2.00 GHz (800 FSB) w/Dual-Core Technology
Samsung 20″ Digital flat panel monitor
2GB DDR SDRAM at 667MHz
256mb nVidia GeForce 7300LE TurboCache video card
320GB Serial ATA2 Hard Drive (7200RPM)
16x DVD+/-RW Drive
13-in-1 Media Bay
Vista Home Premium (bleh)
Ahhh, I’m so stoked. I missed the power and upgradeability of a desktop. I’m really looking forward to have a fast and organized machine again. I really want to get back to investing time in creative projects and maybe taking a course or two in some of the newer design software platforms. Not to mention!!! having the sickest set-up for SC2 and Rainbow Six – I can feel the geek in me taking over again! rejoice! I’m going to go celebrate by drinking a barq’s root beer. schmeah.
There was an eerie fall-ish breeze today that made me nauseous.
Good ‘ole New England wastes no time cooling down.
I finally got some rest time tonight to order myself some take-out, do some much needed laundry and get caught up on LOST with Tevvy Laufer (I even got a nap in the sun in! +10 pts). After class, where I got my A- midterm back! I ended up meeting with Thomas and we talked some things out and laughed a lot.
I needed that.
I’m looking forward to this weekend, I feel like I’ve been gone so long. It will be nice to see those I haven’t and be in familiar surroundings. For as much shit as I talk about leaving and blah blah, when you’ve had a month of transience it’s always nice to be back ‘home’
Tomorrow is Kelly’s last day…It’s weird I guess I either don’t care or haven’t accepted she’s leaving. Things have been so bizarre at work with all of the changes going on I think I’m just off in space when I’m there lately. It definitely will be sad not to have her spirit around and her goofy humor. She’s definitely a comfort for me and a big reason for my successes. Props to you Kel, best of luck in Denver.
I’m dreading September less and less too, which is good for seanostasis. I’m really looking forward to the roomate changes and how I’ll finally get that clean bathroom I’ve always DREAMED of. Plus living with 3 gay guys will have its advantages as well… 
I think I’ll take a fall vacation too, I just don’t know where…
AND! I’ve been to the beach ONCE this summer – COMPLETELY UNACCEPTABLE! So, let’s go! I can always take work off people…chop chop!
bedsies.xo
I Remember.
Once, while falling into approvals tricky arms
I saw esteem’s corpse
Deafened by allure’s sweet, sweet song
Montreal was fan-fucking-tastic. I won’t get into a 3 page description of what went on because I’m tired of re-telling the story (it’s a long one). If you crave the details than just ask me, I can sum up the trip in a few words:
Champagne, late nights, strippers, walks until dawn, sunglasses, excess.
Shit was out. of. control. – a complete success by far, probably one of the most best planned and executed trips i’ve ever taken. Nik, Richard, Patsy and Damion contributed to one of the best trips I’ve ever taken.
Affixed like I’m under a spell
That ain’t even like myself
No – things are going to change
That starts today
I’m home safe and re-adjusting to the crazy (and not so sudden) changes to work. My first day back was fucking twilight zone. All at the same time I’m digging out from what I’ve missed, training for my new position, planning for people who are leaving and coordinating with all the other departments for the staff shift. Nuts.
Otherwise? I’m still in a sort of post-vacation haze, I wish I could go back. I knew as soon as I left Montreal the background anxiety would creep its way back into the front rows of thought.
It’s funny…when I made this blog I told myself no inhibitions, no regrets, no holding back, etc. etc. etc.
And yet I find myself not wanting to write about something that so desperately needs to be let out.
It seems just yesterday I ate it up
Your yarns were dipped in gold
I swallowed them whole
The real tragedy is that your act is just boring and old
Half of me is resigned to the fact that I’ve become such a new person, that my tolerance for bullshit is so low that it doesn’t deserve this kind of recognition. The other half, however, begs I forgive in the honor of years past; and continue to put my own needs and respects down to quell a problem all I’ve dealt with for a while now.
Fuck that.
Back and forth with this disdain
That ain’t even why I came
And when I scream
You want me crawling on my knees
I guess these days I’m someone else
I’m better off all by myself
These days I’m just somebody else
I exist as a part of a whole – that could never exist without one of the other parts.
Funny how things turn out.
