Ahem, so…
Not for nothing, but my lame ass had a dream about Scotty last night – we won’t get into it.
I’m still grappling with this motivation thing, I feel kind of useless at
work not wanting to do anything. I mean, I don’t just sit here but I could be far more pro-active with things and just choose to waste time on espn or perez…oi. As odd as it seems I think being back in the swing of a full class load might help me pull my shit together, and obviously taming down my weekends… (hah!)
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I’m thinking about going to Nashua this weekend to get away from the city and watch the Championship on Brian’s rediculously large television, plus he could use the company. It’s a long weekend so I can compromise by staying on Friday night or coming home for Sunday and have a balanced weekend that won’t kill my bank account…I wonder if I can get any of the boys to come up for some NH shenanigans.
Probably not.
Spose I shouldn’t have written this entry at work if I really cared about being motivated, hah! Off I go…
Hmph.
Ugh I’m upset with myself…I have no motivation to do anything. I just want to sit on the couch and do nothing all day. It pains me to get up for work in the morning and don’t even talk about school…I’m having a serious mental block with caring about my responsibilities.
is this what being black is like?
sigh.
I’ll try to elaborate more tomorrow, but I don’t give a shit right now.
xo
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1. What did you do in 2007 that you’d never done before?
Went to San Francisco
2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Pfft, I never keep my resolutions.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
YES! I’m the proud uncle of Gracie Fay
4. Did anyone close to you die?
Nani Bear
5. What countries did you visit?
Canada
6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
A boy to play with all the time and travel with.
7. What date(s) from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
All the holidays with the BWPC
My birfday
SF Trip 2
Partybus
Pats v. Jets
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Getting another promotion at DFCI and managing a 3.4 GPA
9. What was your biggest failure?
Eh, College Algebra and Niko’s birthday
10. Did you suffer any illness or injury?
No hospital stays! wo0t!
11. What was the best thing you bought?
My new Dell
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
My Mom actually, you go nance!
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Paul
14. Where did most of your money go?
Booze, frivilous purchases…
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Pats v. Jets!!!!!!!!
Montreal
16. What song will always remind you of 2007?
Tambourine
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. Happier or sadder? Toss-up..
ii. Thinner or fatter? I’m always thin.
iii. Richer or poorer? Richer, slightly.
18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
being spontaneous and exercising
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
hah, rhymes with bugs.
20. How did you spend Christmas?
Whelans on Christmas Eve
O’Donnells on Christmas Day
22. Did you fall in love in 2007?
Probably, can’t remember that dancers name though…
23. How many one-night stands?
Not many believe it or not, I’ve had this awful habit of keeping them around.
24. What was your favorite TV program?
LOST!
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
mmm not that I can remember…
26. What was the best book you read?
umm
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
o0o0o0…. probably Teddy’s Cheer Club
28. What did you want and get?
my Wii
29. What did you want and not get?
financial stability
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Grindhouse
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 22 and had a wack ass party but then the next night went bar hopping in cambridge with like 16 people and threw up in a palm tree…shit was brilliant.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
eh, probably having the boys around more.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
what the fuck is a personal fashion concept?
34. What kept you sane?
random trips…and cuddling.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I dunno, I guess Johnny Depp still.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Fucking Mass legislation making Fire Safe Cigarettes the only available.
37. Who did you miss?
Thomas y Niko
38. Who was the best new person you met?
BJ and Jenfo
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007:
STOP SPENDING MONEY LIKE THAT!!!!!!!!
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
Cigarettes & Alcohol
I’m seriously lacking with this update business!
Up until the middle of December I was still anticipating quite a shitty holiday season, and how wrong was I?
I think having the boys home had a lot to do with it, but also time off from school, work, and mixed with an unusual availability of time between all of the BWPC created this crazy storm of ridiculousness. Today is my first day of rest in nearly a week, by the time Brian and I woke up yesterday my body had fucking had it…I plan on getting as much sleep and drinking as much water as possible in the next few days.
Everything has been really good interpersonally, I’ve managed to not harbor any bitchy feelings over the holidays and kind of fix things for myself with Brian and start a new friendship with Niko’s Brian…who it turns out is a sweet kid with good intentions. I’ve been able to spend a good amount of time with Thomas which has had a lot to do with booting my mood and patience levels with everything.
I have the rest of this week off to rest before another crazy weekend (I’m sure) with the boys. Next week begins the new semester and the boys will pack up and head back to their schools, I’m not sad though…this time spent with them has (if nothing else) re-assured our love for each other and the strength of our bond. State borders haven’t done much in the way of hurting that. I’ll have a full class load when I go back on Monday which I’m not really stoked about but will get through it because there’s only 3 more months of bitter cold left before I can look forward to sleeping with my windows open at night and smelling spring in the morning again.
I think I’m gonna walk to Whole Foods and grab some vanilla cheesecake…I’ve got a craving like Paul and bad decisions.
xo
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C in math bitches!
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Can we talk about this tidbit I found on TBS’s Wiki page? It’s about Fred leaving TBS, you know, the shitty replacement for John Nolan of Straylight:
Andy Jackson as possible new Guitarist
An unofficial replacement at this time is ex-Hot Rod Circuit vocalist, Andy Jackson. This rumor has only been confirmed by a fan who claimed to have spoke with with Andy at a recent show.
“Spoke with Andy Jackson from Hot Rod Circuit before their last nyc show tonight – He will be replacing Fred in Tacking Back Sunday…” http://www.absolutepunk.net/showthread.php?t=283042
Andy has stated that he is not offical yet, but simply trying out.
w t f
Kiss my ass Jackson! Seriously, if the desolve of HRC was because of a possible shot at being Adam Lazzara’s shitty back up vocals you can kiss. my. ass.
I love Andy, don’t get me wrong…but I loved him in HRC – not Adam’s sloppy thirds.
LKSJAFL”KFH”WLFKH”FLAKHFL”KH
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can’t. fucking. wait.
Thomas and Niko will be coming home in the next week and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. My last math class is on the 19th and then I’m free to play with my boys for a few weeks and re-charge my soul. I’m not entirely confident I’m going to pass this course, I totally bombed a test last week (though didn’t fail it) and I have serious doubts as to my ability to pass the final. I’m putting all of my energy in the ‘paper’ final assignment due this Wednesday.
Pray for me.
I feel like once this class is over I will be able to shake this funk I’ve fallen into, I’m kind of joyless in almost everything I do. Weekends with the crew have become sort of routine and dry even when we’re doing something I would normally totally enjoy…I dunno what’s wrong. Hopefully being with the FSB will give me the jump start I need to be m
ore happy and productive with school and work, so we’ll wait and see.
Otherwise I’m chugging along through everything, rent is paid, bills are paid, I bought gifts for people for the holiday, and I finally replaced my 8 year old surge protector under my feet that had burn marks and a melted socket. Small triumphs are where I’m at these days, things like making sure we never run out of paper towels and that I have clean work clothes for the week have become little pockets of comfort. What the hell is wrong with me?
Couple of fun events on the horizon I hope to really enjoy – Tomorrow is the final Boston Hot Rod Circuit show which I’m ok with, I haven’t seen them in ages but they haven’t put anything good out in ages so we break even and maybe I can give Casey a hug goodbye. Next Sunday Brian and I are going to the Pats v. Jets game in Foxboro which will be chilly but fucking amazing…I’m really stoked about that one. Of course the BWPC Xmas party and NYE bash will be fun, or at least guaranteed better than last year :X
Fancy myself the new Thursday live/rare/whatever CD.
I feel like being bitchy on the couch and playing Mario Galaxy…my latest tiny happiness.
xo
PS – Peep the Flickr I posted about 200 pics from the DFCI party and Ture’s.
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I plan to write in this…tomorrow.
